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The value of judiciously selecting food

Friday, January 23rd, 2009

Over the last couple weeks, my entire attitude about nutrition has changed.  A few nights ago, I observed how much time I was spending trying to buy yogurt.  In the end, there wasn’t a single one-serving yogurt container in the store I could eat (and this was at Whole Foods!).  I was momentarily dismayed, not by the lack of availability of something worth introducing into my digestive system, but rather the time I was spending making a decision.

Then I thought about how conscientious I am about other decisions that are important to me. When I buy a DVD, I make sure it’s the best edition availabile: 2-disc, commentaries, DTS, whatever.  when buying my camera, I researched it for about five weeks before making the purchase; any new piece of technology, I research and I compare (and I save up).  sometimes by the time I’m “ready” to buy, it’s no longer the best choice, and so I wait even longer (the main reason why I’ve been “in the market for a new TV” since August 2000).

I think of my folks, both of whose cars are performance vehicles: they pay more of 93-Octane gas and do it gladly, because it makes a difference; and if they had to go out of their way to find a station that supplied it, they’d do it without complaint.  shouldn’t I treat my body the same way?  Unlike my nine-year-old truck, if I treat it like a performance machine, it will actually become one.

Therefor, it’s not wasted time being judicious about what fuels I introduce into my body’s energy pipeline.

PF update 20090120

Wednesday, January 21st, 2009

Weight this morning went back up to 202.8, but walking around, I FELT like I was carrying less weight and I felt like my body fit in my clothes better than I’d noticed previously.

Tanzeen brought slices of an amazing looking chocolate cake to a meeting where there were only four participants, including myself, in a small room at a small table.  I very easily said “no”, and Greg followed suit.  I’m actually surprised at my discipline there.  However, I know I’m just focused on these first two weeks.  I’m concerned at how I might waver when I reintroduce fruit and carbs back into my diet.  I’ll make exceptions here and there, and I’m concerned about how lax I might become over an extended period of time.

I didn’t run tonight, but I did make sure to do my core exercises: The 12 push-ups were very easy, though my lower abdomen still burned.  I also completed 32 sit-ups without stopping.  I pause momentarily, thinking I had to get to 40.  I did the remaining eight, though looking back at my log from yesterday I can see that I only needed to do 35 to keep on my schedule.  I’ll keep with the 40 tomorrow night, too, but up the push-ups to 13.  I know it’s a VERY slow increase, but it’s something I mean to be maintainable no matter what.  Simple steps strictly followed will get me to where I want to go.

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The Life Before Her Eyes - strong elements, but ultimately disappointing film

Tuesday, January 20th, 2009

I just saw the film, The Life Before Her Eyes, which was based on a book by the same name. It was originally screened at festivals with the name In Bloom, which may have been more symbolically appropriate, as the book’s title gives away too much of the film’s ending.

I typically don’t care about spoilers, but I know I’m rather rare in that respect.  But I will make references to “An Occurance at Owl Creek Bridge”, Stay, and Jacob’s Ladder.  If you understand the common thread between those three naratives, then I just spoiled the movie for you (I guess). In broad strokes, the film is about the events in young wild-child Diana’s (played be Evan Rachel Wood) life and her friendship with polar oposite Maureen, in the weeks leading up to a horrific school shooting that culcminates in a gut-wrenching encounter with the gunman and the two girls in the girls’ bathroom, intercut with scenes fifteen years later from the life of an adult Diana (played by Uma Thurman), as she lives with the guilt of surviving, as well as the deep after-effects of other choices she made as a teenager.

The cinematography was truly wonderful, as was the acting and the undercurrents of the story of young Diana’s friendship with Maureen.  There are visual clues throughout the filming techniques that clue you in on how to emotionally re-assemble the story once the connections are made clear in the end.  I didn’t mind so much the continuous intercutting between past and future, as well as the playing around with chronology of the past, though James Berardinelli calls it very clearly in his review: “The non-chronological approach creates an intellectual puzzle but limits the ability of the audience to relate to the characters.”

My biggest gripe with the film isn’t the manner in which director Perlman has chosen to compose the film, or in its ultimate meaning, or even in the moral subtext of the story; it’s in the way the symbolism is continuously pounded into the audience.  There are some repeitions of elements that build up intrigue and make you wonder, “I wonder what that’s really supposed to mean”.  Then there are other elements which are repeated in not-so-subtle ways that over the course of the film actually become annoying.  It’s not that it’s clumsy or awkward… it’s just heavy-handed.  All these other elements blend together in a way that synthesise a graceful whole that is undermined by the artless hammer of these repeated statements.

And honestly, it kinda ruined it for me.

In other news, the entire reason why I was even aware of this film is because the score is composed by James Horner.  I suppose the music was effective, but in the end, it just seemed far more clinical than emotional.  It was quite a departure for his film sensibilities, and frnakly, I’m not so sure the film was more or less for his efforts.  And I think that’s the first time I’ve ever felt that way about a Horner score.

Physical Fitness Update 20090119

Monday, January 19th, 2009

Morning weight: 202.2 pounds (6.6 pounds lost in 7 days).

I brought lunch today, but was dragged to Corner Bakery by Brian and Barry.  I had the Chopped Salad (again… it’s tasty, but pretty much the only thing I can eat on the menu during Phase 1).

Dinner was pretty sparse… just a chicken breast I’d prepared last night and some asparagus. No salad.  I was pretty tired this evening… just sleepy. Fell asleep in front of the TV after dinner. But I did go for a run later on. After dinner, I tried a plain yoghurt–was pretty nasty all on its own.  I added vanilla extract and cinnamon, still nasty. Added Splenda, and it was awesome tasty.

So, my run tonight: Another 2.1 miles.  Was able to maintain a steady pace the whole way through, and it was a respectable pace at that.  The 7th 8th features a noticeable incline that was difficult to maintain the pace, and my CV didn’t recover until halfway through the last eighth.

Very slowly integrating core exercises back into my routine, as well.  As pathetic as this sounds, I started last night with 10 push-ups and 25 sit-ups.  My muscles have become SO soft and week, it’s sad.  Last night, I had a hard time sleeping, because the slightest movement flared up soreness in my lower abdomen from the sit-ups.  The idea is to increase the push-ups by one a day (I can probably do better than that), and the sit-ups be 5 a day.  I’ll do that until I’m at 50 push-ups and 200 situps.  Hard to believe I could do 100 push-ups in one go without even thinking about it.  Sad.

When doing the push-ups tonight, the greatest pain I encountered was in the lower abdomen–wicked painful.  I can see where I need to focus most of my work for rebuilding core strength–the same place that accumulated most of the fat to begin with. How did I let myself get this way?

Well, at least I have a goal and I’m sticking to it, and I’m making noticeable progress.  Goals… important.

Physical Fitness: update 20090119

Sunday, January 18th, 2009

I mentioned a while back that I’d start the south Beach Diet last Sunday.

Well, I did.

The first few days were a little rough, but I settled into it pretty nicely.  It was rough primarily because I wasn’t really prepared, grocery-wise.  Even though I’d done some shopping Sunday night, I hadn’t left enough time to prepare food for the next day.  And I wasn’t quite sure how to do the snacking.  So I spent most of Monday continuously hungry.  But after Monday night, I settled right in.  Even on days when I felt myself getting hungry, it was no longer accompanied by the light-headedness that usually plagued my hunger.  And it wasn’t out-of-nowhere, either.  Too often I’d previously had hunger creep up on me, and I’d think to myself, “how is that possible?  I just ate two hours ago!”  Not any more.  So, my blood chemistry is definitely balancing itself out.

I bought my first scale last Saturday and I weighed myself Sunday night: 208.8.  I’m not sure if that’s the most I’ve weighed, but when I put my pants on Monday, January 5, they definitely felt the tightest I’d worn them (and these were the 36″ ones I’d bought to be comfy and roomy!).  After just a week, the comfort and roominess returned, and I’ve lost six pounds: this morning I weighed 202.8.  Not bad for seven days.

The hardest part, actually, has been the shopping budget.  Last Sunday, I spent over a hundred dollars on fresh produce, chicken, various spices and fresh herbs.  OF course, I wasn’t fully familiar with what I’d actually eat or not, so I certainly overdid it. So far, I haven’t thrown anything away, but there are some fresh herbs I haven’t touched yet, and a few other things in packages I might not get to for a while.  I went shopping again tonight for this week’s grub, and it cost me $33.  I’m sure I’ll need to replenish or buy a couple items on the way home to prepare specific recipes, racking up another $20 somewhere throughout the week, but much better than $100 a week, which was my initial fear.  Also, after next week, the diet loosens a lot of its restrictions, so I can introduce fruit into the diet and a few actual complex carbs, so I’ll more freedom in what I can prepare.

But more than anything, my body is retuning itself to a carb-light diet, and it’s SUCH a good thing.  I’m also learning to cook for myself for the first time. Things don’t have to be complicated. Steaming vegetables is EASY. And so is cooking some really savoury chicken breasts to have for dinners and lunches for the next few days.  This can become an easy habit to maintain–it just requires a LITTLE bit of forethought and planning, and with that, the discipline is actually kinda fun to maintain.

So, I went running again tonight for the first time since the Ragnar Relay.  I hadn’t realised how much damage I’d done to my cardiovascular system by taking it easy and eating whatever I wanted to (without over-indulging) over the holidays.  I’d love to know what I actually weighed at the time of the relay. Tonight, I only ran 2.1 miles, and I was lagging REALLY hard-core.  I could actually feel the flab I’d built up over the intervening months, and my lungs felt asthmatic.  I used to keep a pace of eight steps to every one breath (inhale and exhale).  Now it was practically 2:1.  Gotta just keep at it, though.

If I stay disciplined with a diet like this, run regularly, and also do core exercises and stretches every day, I’ll be back in a decent shape in a couple months.  My aim is to be at my goal weight of 175 by the end of March.  After that, I’d like to build back the muscle I had when I was rowing in college.  When I was rowing, I had to keep it down to 180 to stay on the lightweight eight team, but it was difficult; I had to under-train my legs to do that.  My ideal weight when weight training is 190, and my aim is to be there by August.

I’ll make regular updates here.

Does this blog make me look fat?

Thursday, January 8th, 2009

First off, I was (only a little bit) surprised how many entire blogs are titled with this post’s subject.

Second, while I’m not one for “resolutions”, this new year, I’m doing something I’ve never done before: going on a diet.  Specifically, I’m going to do the South Beach Diet… starting Sunday.  I picked up Dr. Agatston’s book last week, and have been making my way through its first few chapters: my eyes have been completely opened anew to approaches to nutrition.  I feel like a number of my built-in ideas about things are being challenged.

First: for some reason, I figured the diet was named the South Beach Diet exclusively to evoke imagery of hard-bodied babes and hunks that seem to perennially populate South Beach.  I was surprised to understand the origin of the name was tied to the location not because of its bold and beautiful denizens, but because this is where Dr. Agatston has his cardiology practice, and where he first started experimenting with the diet.  It is at South Beach where it started and from South Beach that it spread, and thus it became known as the South Beach Diet.  I had partially been biased against the diet because it seemed to be geared as a fad towards those who wanted to look good in bikinis.

But, being designed by a cardiologist, it is primarily about blood chemistry and how that affects your heart and the health of the rest of your body.

The second ingrained idea being bucked by reading this book is what whole foods are all about.  Somewhere in my head, the proclivity to whole foods was more a world-view statement than it was a concern for personal health.  I enjoy shopping at stores like Whole Foods, Market Street, or Central Market for a variety of reasons: the service is great, the stores are always clean, the clientele is upscale, the prepared meal offerings are more sophisticated.  But the idea of whole foods always seemed to be a great deal about environmentalism and free trade, things that appealed to folks who are a bit more… “granolla”, or politically liberal–folks who are typically a bit more elitist (and not a little self-righteous) in their perception of their own ethics.  And that’s fine: people are entitled to their opinions, and there’s plenty of viewpoints from that camp I tend to agree with. That’s not the point of this article.  Just that “whole foods” was, in my mind, a pillar of a political world-view and not at all associated primary with health.

And now, having read what I have, I get it–at least to a much greater degree than I used to.  Or, moreover, I get its importance.  Growing up I was blessed (although I wonder now if it were a curse) with a performace metabolism.  In high school, I typically had to eat five meals a day.  My diet typically consisted of 3,000 - 5,000 calories  a day.  No matter what I ate, my weight never straighed far above 165 pounds.  And I ate pure crap most of the time.  Nutrition was very far from my mind.  My parents always boiled vegetables, and so that’s how I learned to like them.  In college, I learned that cooking them that way “destroyed all the nutrients”.  So?  And then to learn in the late nineties that carbs are responsible for obesity, and that fibre mixed with the carbs seems to help.  Watching carbs just seemed like a pointless exercise.

But then, I started studying the chemistry of trans fats earlier in the year as an intellectual exercise, and I started to see a) how bad trans fats were for our lipid transfer systems and other biochemistry; and b) exactly why the processing of foods yields such high concentrations of trans fats (it’s both an attempt to reduce the amount of animal fat used, as well as to provide the same consistency of animal-based fats but with a much higher melting point, making foods both taste better and keep longer).  So, I  started to perceive that processed foods were evil, purely for the trans fat content.

Then I read something very interesting that Dr. Agatston wrote that really made it click for me: typically digestion of the food we consume begins before we even put it in our mouth.  By cooking food, the break-down of the fuel, vitamins, minerals, and other building blocks of healthy biochemistry begins right there.  But so much of our food has already been prepared and processed many times over before it even hits the shelf.  The vast majority of the food we buy has the stuff that’s good already taken out of it, and all that’s left is quicky-accessible energy.  And it’s this idea of the energy resident in the food-fuel being too easily accessible that suddenly made sense to me.  Blood chemistry is dependent upon the steady regulation of insulin, which is responsible for the conversion of glucose in the blood into other forms of stored energy for shrot term or long term use.  The pancreas generates insulin and the petuitary gland regulates its release into the blood stream as a reaction to changes in glucose content.  It’s a very complex second-order differential system.  But it is designed to react in certain ways to certain changes.

The types of sugar supplies found in nature take time to break down in the digestive system: the fibrous structures in natural, “whole” foods require a lot more digestive work to break down in order to release the sugar into the blood stream.  With a slow release, the body responds with an appropriate, measured release of insulin.  When the body detects a quicker rise, more insulin is released, since, in nature, this would only be due to a much greater influx of sugar to be processed.  When we eat food whose natural structure has been destroyed, making the sugar that much more readily available to the digestive system, this creates a huge and sudden rise in blood sugar that is far outside the realm of what the body would normally encounter. The body perceives this burst as an indicator that there will be much more sugar to process, and it releases a flood of insulin as a response. However, the body perceived the situation wrongly: there’s not more sugar present, it was just presented with all of it at once instead over a longer period of time.  But it’s too late, the insulin has already been released in a massive dose in anticipation of more sugar than is actually going to be present.  The sugar is promptly processed to the point where sugar that would normally be left in the blood stream to facilitate immediate needs (like healthy neuro functions) is all but gone.  This results in extreme hunger and impaired neurofunctionality: hypoglycemia.  The only way out is to feed yourself more sugar.

Unfortunately, we typically still don’t privide the sugar in a form that will simply interact with the existing insulin in the blood stream.  Instead, the body is faced with yet another flood, and the yo yo of sugar and insulin spikes continues. All the while, tons of sugar–far more than required to meet the body’s energy needs–have been introduced to the body.  Dr. Agatston has a chapter titled, “Why eating makes you hungry”.  And this made absolute sense to me.  And I was able to see how it’s directly related to the fact that, through processing them, we strip our foods of all the things that allow it to interact with our digestive system in a fashion that will facilitate healthy blood chemistry.

The last few years, I’ve been seeing myself gain all the more weight and typically around three or four hours after lunch, I find myself in a hypoglycemic haze.  Nothing I eat has ever seemed to make me feel less hungry, even though my appetite was satisfied.  I finally udnerstand why.

So, I’m going to do the South Beach Diet.  The first two weeks is a brutal Spartan exercise, removing pretty much every primary source of carbs and sugar from your diet: no bread, no fruit, very few vegetables, and no alcohol.  Believe it or not, there’s still plenty of protein-rich foods and fibrous vegetables and legumes that this leaves available. It just takes disipline, and maybe even more importantly, planning.  After following this very strict diet for two weeks, your body has suddenyl found a means of maintaining healthy blood sugar and the process of ketosis can begin: that is, instead of constantly calling for the further introduction of new sugars into the bloodstream, it will realise that there’s a wealth of the stuff just sitting around in the body.  Without the crazy insulin roller coaster, the body will know how to burn this alternative fuel in a way that doesn’t impaire other bodily functions. That is, fat is burned without making you tired.  Obviously, the more energy requirements your burden the body with (exercise) and the more you provide the body nutrients it does need, the more effectively, it will consume the energy reserves without demanding that new fuel sources be introduced into the body.

It’s amazing that this stuff is making sense to me in this fashion for the first time.  I’m a pretty smart guy, but my past ability to “eat anything without a care in the world” has really put me at a disadvantage and blinded me to how important all this really is.  I think, for the first time since I noticed that I started to gain weight (about 9 years ago), I’m going to do something about it.  I have about 35 pounds to lose.  I’ll keep making updates here through my blog, even if doing so makes me look as fat in cyberspace as I feel right now, sitting in front of my computer.